open up and say ahhhhh

So we are being "open" and verbal in our marriage now and sharing our feelings. Well shit man the year can't get any worse right. So basically without lying, I was able to tell him how I "feel" about my Dr, and that i can't stop thinking about him. He said it's only natural for me to fixate on something like that after the year I have had, and he knows it's not real. I said oh of course not honey. heh
So it felt better to say it openly. But it did not stop my constant thinking about him. I miss him, I have not seen him since last Saturday. that's too long. Not this just past saturday but the one before. I lost 5 lbs since then also and a pants size. Good thing he wants to see my daughter because she's due, so there's my excuse *vbg*

I worked today days, but tomorrow is night, 2 in a row then I have the day off. We are shit ass poor again even though I had a motherfucking kick ass paycheck, because we spent the entire fucking thing at the casino. WTF is our problem.

anyways I just wanted to say
I love him I love him I love him I love him


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